getting the effort...

I am tired today... i haven't ran yet and usually i would have run for at least 30 min but i am tired. i am really trying to work up the will power to actually stand up from this comfy chair and change into my running clothes. too much effort.................ugh............sigh.....i really should run. I didn't exercise all school year and now i am really paying for it. well to be perfectly honest my body hasn't changed this whole year. i think i have actually lost weight.

my weight has been a big issue for me though...a couple months back i was worried about my weight because my freshmen year i was at 115 or 117. I got mono in march 2008 and my weight dropped. Since then i have yet to get back to 115 or 117. when i went to the doctor a couple months ago i asked them my weight record since i have been at BYU and here is what i heard
112
117
110
108
106
105
103
i was a little worried because i do eat. alot! i know when to stop because i have self control but i don't know why i am dropping weight. what worried me more was that i am on the pill and that usually makes the girl gain weight after the first 3 or 4 months of use. well it had been a year since starting and i was losing weight. and i was definitely NOT working out at all. weird. I had my blood tested to see if any abnormalities would show up but nothing. after that i talked to a dietitian. that was a unique experience because she probably told me the exact opposite from what she tells all the other patients. she told me to eat fatty things; butter on my popcorn, etc. It was kind of funny. basically it was to see if i could put on weight. she also said to change up my diet. shock my system a little if you will. and to be active; running, lifting weights, etc. well i have been not so diligent in eating fatty foods(i try to eat healthy and cook healthy for austin and i) and i ate even less after that meeting because of finals and the stress of school. she also said that stress could be the culprit of my weight loss.

I know all of this might sound weird. what girl complains about losing weight??! well i do because there could be a serious problem causing it. but luckily it doesn't look like there is anything wrong with me, or at least what the doctor can tell. so currently my weight fluctuates between 104 and 101...but maybe it will change with my running... but i don't know.

well i am off to change into the running clothes and run while watching a movie...i wonder which movie i should watch?....hmm...decisions decisions...

haha